In my heart

Luke 2:19 "But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart."

I feel like I know how Mary felt in this passage. Yes, she was a part of something much bigger than us, Jake. But, I feel like I know how she felt looking at her child.

The other day, I was holding you before nap time. You gave me your normal hug, of collapsing on my shoulder, which I love. Then you sat up and gently grabbed my face with your hands. You just sat there, holding my face and looking at me. You looked at me with love, admiration and thanks. That moment, broke my heart. You have my heart, it's yours, please be gentle. You mean the world to me, I would do anything for you! But that moment also empowered me. I have such a huge responsibility to you. I want to be the mom you need me to be! Your love is empowering, much the same way your daddy's love for me is.  And much the same way God's love is. Our human love is much less complete than God's love for us but, it is never ending, like my love for you and your daddy.

I love you my boy...more than you will ever know

Jake is 15 months old!

You just turned 15 months old! I know it's not a major mile stone but each month bring with it new things you can do and new challenges! 

The day after you turned 15 months old you woke up from your nap in such a good mood. We played peek-a-boo for a little bit and just played around. 

You are such a joy!

I cherish these sweet, little moments with you. 

After you wake up from your nap you hand me your binkey, it's so cute. You know you have to give it up before you get out to play. I love that you are used to that and hand it over with out any issues!

You found another binkey in your bed, you little stinker.

Peek-A-Boo!!!

Then I popped my head over the crib and said, "boo!". You giggled and squealed! 

You couldn't stand the anticipation of mommy peeking her head over so you peeked!!

here you go mama

Cute....

Cute....

Cute!!!

I feel like I should call this the many faces of Jake...

Oh....

Oh????

This is your serious face. 

Pondering the deep things of life...

So silly, I think you saw a bird out side and got really excited!! "Brr!! Brr!!" That is how you say bird, you love birds. 

Mommy, why do you have that camera in my face. 

Searching for more birds.

Jake, you are such a joy. I know that someday you will have a sibling (Lord willing) and things will change. Know that I enjoy these little moments. I cherish these little times in my heart. I tuck them away and hold them dear. These are the moments that I became a mom for, these times make all the hard times bearable. There are many more sweet times than bad. I love our life with you. You have helped me convince daddy to have three kids! You are so fun that daddy think we can have more! We'll see what happens. But for now, I'm just loving this mommy stuff!!